Realm of HoneyRock

Hey,

I just want to say thank Ryan for having this site, but I have decided to longer post blogs about my life and all.

If a friend wants to know what is going on in my life they will just call me up.

Tootles to all

- Bernadette

I may in the future make a domain that has just silly comics. I will email the site later. It will be something like VG cats

Hello everyone!

Well so far that I see two peoples read my last entry so weee! I do have an audience.

Anywho, last week was ahhhhhhhh with studying and project and everything. Oh man.

I finished a project that we were given about six weeks to do and during that time I did it 4 times! Yep you read right! FOUR FLIPPING times.

I got it perfected and finished in two days! Oh thank you Jesus. I could not have done so without Isaac's help. He is so good to me. I am very happy. He loves and cares for me as much as I love and care for him. I am very thankful and greatfull for that.

Tonight we are planning to walk late at night and feed the bunnies. They are soooo cute.
I just want to pick one up one day and be like awwww you so cute.

School is still as crazy as ever but I am getting by. With my efforts and everything my professors tells me that I will do great things in the future.

Everything in my life has finally for the first time feel complete. School is a bitch but hey you can't have everything, I am talking to my brother and mother, money is not too horrible but I am surviving, Isaac is awesome, and my friends are still as sweet as always.

I owe these current moments to the bad and good that has happened to me in the past, because sometimes I look back and think of how I got to be where I am now. And it hits me....the answer is the past. I have traveled so many bumps and loops and holes that I know now how to avoid and be cautious around those disorders.

I just pray that whatever bump or detour I hit in the future I will always recall to the past.

I look in the mirror and I am seeing myself again. I see me. I am growing my hair just the way I like it (I hated it short! I always did), I am loosing weight, my eyes are no longer hiding tears, my skin tone is more vivid and flush, but most of all I can't stop smiling.

teehee.

I hope everyone is doing well as well.

*hugs* to all

Best Easter EVER!

Wow! It has been awhile since I have had such a great year of good luck with hoilday's. I had such a great time at the Serbin's. They are sweet people. I like them.

We did an egg hunt.....me and Isaac. teehee and by accident we cheated with the whole egg hunt thing...well they hid them at night and we were walking inside the house to find a fun movie to watch together. I swears! We did not mean too.

That same day I visited the magical world of SAM's club! I never have gone there! It was cool! Everything was huge! HUGE! I was in desperate search for a life size gummie bear....but it was no where to be found.

How sad.

The next day we had huge steaks! you guessed it.. yes, we got them from SAM's club. I did not eat all of it but I tried my very best.

Great weekend: Lots of food and laughter and love which is always nice.

My life is going okay. The only thing that is sucking right now is school, but other than that things are beautiful.

I miss my papa and hanging with friends.

Maybe when life is less demanding I will be able to hang with everyone.

Hello everyone!

Or should I just say Ryan...teehee.

Well I have decided that I would really like to post more in this journal and possibly make another journal where I could post comics of everyday activity. Or some biology joke..teehee

I love VG cats and I feel with my crazy mind and time I can be just as great

Plus I could sell hats or something.

The other day I came out of Lilly Hall and saw this girl with this BIG WHITE polar bear hat. I was like....Oh no you didn't.

So, I made a bigger better hat. I cute bunny winter hat with the biggest ears you have seen. Mr. Isaac helped me make it which was awesome and now I will beat all who try to match up to my hat.....

Sadly winter is starting to dry out, which is bad for hat business but I will find a way.

Maybe I should just make cute little summer dresses and be like...weeee see girls can still ware dresses at the age of 21.. Muhahaha

Alright then. I am off to do a project. Until next time.

Tootles

Hey everyone!

I hope all is well with everyone.

So far I am having a great summer. I am finding myself and understanding what makes me happy. I have made the "lonely bunny" plush character from Chobits. She looks sad but when I hug her I try to remind her that she is not lonely. Church is great. I don't speak to anyone and no one speaks to me. And that is how I like it. There are sometimes where I just like listening and being left alone in my own little world. And Church is one of those times. Going to church lonely use to make me really upset but I have grown to accept lots of things and understand how to enjoy my own presence.

OH! This past saturday night there was this really fun, very talented, new sounding, spicy salsa group playing at sladder hill. I discovered the festivities when I was doing one of my night walks. Campus can be scary sometimes but in a way I like to travel at night, because deep inside I feel like it makes me stronger. But anywho, I was heading back to my apartment when I heard great music coming from the hill.

I walked faster than Kyle speed and step right up to the front of the edge of the stage and just shaked it. It was really nice. There were moments where I just raised my arms clapping or waving and closed my eyes and really just engulf myself in the music. There was some people break dancing during the concert or doing the electric slide. And I was thinking to my self...."um no" but then I stepped back and said you know what. As long as they are having a great time. It does not matter how you dance. You dance the way you feel, the way you are, the way you know how to just lay back and have fun. Dancing is not something that becomes technical but rather a motion of expression that explains to the world. Hey! this is me and this is what I feel.

The entire night I dance by myself and had a great time. Yes, I wish someone was there that I knew, but if I stopped doing things because someone is not there to share that moment with me I could miss out on some great experiences.

This summer I have been walking everywhere I can. I get a kick to know I can go so far. If I could I would just keep on walking all the way to the pacific and all the way back.

I am going to get my license permit today! I am excited! Kyle has been so nice to offer me rides to the BMV. I am very happy that I have such great support. As soon as I get it I will enter in these classes and get my actual driving license ASAP.

The summer is growing short which makes me sad but the whole experience of the summer have proven to me of what I need to do to maintain my sanity. I will make sure that during the fall semester I keep intact with my feelings and my artistic desires to spoil my friends and myself.

hugs to all!